What I can say, nonetheless how matter I love him, is that I am kinda sorta slightly a bit disappointed. You know what does that mean when I write like that? That I'm disappointed A LOT but just because I love him I don't dare to say that. Well, too bad, now I did say it. I'm still hoping, of course. But I feel like a fool checking my phone way too often and taking it with me. Also, I wake up, not by my own will, but my body's, around when they wake up and .. that seems pretty stupid or I dunno. Weird, mildly saying.
However mad I am at the moment, tho, it won't matter when he comes back. It won't even matter when (if?!) he writes to me next time. Sure, I'll pout for the first half of the conversation but as time matters in our case - we don't have it that much to spend it recklessly -, I'm gonna pull myself together. And of course I know that when he'll come back, I'm gonna run to him in the airport and hug him to his death - not any cruel intentions here, tho. It's just slightly ironical that I'm gonna kinda kill him, like, now I'm mad, but then I'm gonna be so happy to see him, and just then I'm gonna kill him, not now, when I am mad. Huh, even I didn't understand anything noIt's been three days since I'vew :D
But yeah, I've got it all planned out, how I'm gonna greet him on our homeland. As my life has been a movie for the past, um, five years, I found I have nothing to lose anyway and follow one of the movie plot. Hell yeah, it can't be more embarrassing than half the things that have already happened to me and, besides, I hope to surprise his parents by my all-Russian-nature (LOLLOL). AND Kärt, hopefully, will snap a couple of pictures, so it's worth it.
Oh, funny thing: while writing all of that scenario, I started smiling and forgot the harm. So, yeah, my mood changes quickly. But, it's better that way anyway. I mean, I haven't used Magic that much since I lent the book, therefore I haven't used the powers to the fullest. Gotta practice again :)
P.S. I'm going back home again (I've spent some days at parents' home) and I'm so happy :) My gang comes to visit and today is Friday already, so I've lived through 5,5 days without him, and first week is almost over, which means just another to go. And as I'm gonna spend it at work mostly, then it's gonna pass fast :P Hell yeah, I love my life.
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It's been three days since I've heard about him.
Hmm. I think I'm not even disappointed or mad anymore. Basically, I am simply sad. I hoped for more.
Peace? I don't think so. Just sad Luna.
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