Saturday 20 July 2013
I've lived side by side with these people for my whole life. But still they have no idea of how many times I've wept, how many times I've broken down, how many I've screamed for help. Help never came, I was all alone, tho just in my room, next to their cheerful chatter. They don't even know how many times I've thought of leaving that world. They don't know me whereas they think they do.
They think I'm a selfish and arrogant bitch who cares only about herself. This shows exactly how little they know me. They keep arguing, too often to call it normal. They accuse me of the most nonsense things. And then they wonder why I'm never home. For what I get scolded as well.
I've been taught not to care about people I'm not related to biologically too much because they are not family, they are not for a lifetime, they'll leave. I was taught to care about family more. But I've learned that, first, you see yourself who you should care about. True, people come and go and family "stays", but you learn to live without them in different stages of life. And even if other people leave, at least they know about you more.
Friends. The sad truth is, you gotta go through many people during your life to find the ones that wanna stay. But through all that betrayal, disappointment, hurt and pain you finally understand it all more. Besides, these people actually listen to you. I don't know how it happens, but somehow you just connect. You feel that you can trust them. And even though they may leave in the future, they were there for you when you needed them.
They think I'm a selfish and arrogant bitch who cares only about herself. This shows exactly how little they know me. They keep arguing, too often to call it normal. They accuse me of the most nonsense things. And then they wonder why I'm never home. For what I get scolded as well.
I've been taught not to care about people I'm not related to biologically too much because they are not family, they are not for a lifetime, they'll leave. I was taught to care about family more. But I've learned that, first, you see yourself who you should care about. True, people come and go and family "stays", but you learn to live without them in different stages of life. And even if other people leave, at least they know about you more.
Friends. The sad truth is, you gotta go through many people during your life to find the ones that wanna stay. But through all that betrayal, disappointment, hurt and pain you finally understand it all more. Besides, these people actually listen to you. I don't know how it happens, but somehow you just connect. You feel that you can trust them. And even though they may leave in the future, they were there for you when you needed them.
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